Tuesday, December 30, 2008
im sick and tired
of this crap happening to me
that suffocation
i just want to run now, run till i drop on my knees and there i know where my limit lies.
i have lost faith in alot of things i used to believe,
this is disturbing images, scenes, scripts i heard before.
is this karma? is this retribution?
the signs seem like its saying so.
im short of breath, for awhile
things seem like its a breeze.
but now its as if im walking through muds of lava in hell alot of
unhealthy feelings thought.
if i can draw what im feeling now.
u can see this blue beast with bloody claws.
cracking my skull from inside as i put both
my hands onto my ears.
this tornado of emotions is driving me crazy!
am i over reacting
and should i just put patience in what i have endured all this while
will my silent prayers finally answered?
what happened to me? my complexion grow darker,
eyebags starts appearing pimples starts bubbling,
im poor in both ways,
money and happiness.
dear god..
the only thing i ask for
is bring that happiness back.
for money i do not care for now.
*i dont need another puppet.
*or just a one night stand.
(*BOTH ARE NOT IN SEXUAL TERMS)
hypocracy, double standards,
naive, narrow minded, why does this exist?
why there are such things happening.
i believe in a open state of mind,
confidence, equality, fairness. but things around us
and particularly me. is not happening. and i tend to fall into
trap doors where this feeling i cant respond orderly as i
have always been, and sometime hatred.
when the days were bright, 4:22 AM
