Tune in to my life

2009-11-12T20:27:00.001+08:00

2009-10-25T10:54:00.003+08:00

Hie all, i just cameback from my 24hours duty hours ago,

exhausted n dizzy, i lost alot of mass.. in one day how did that happened? i wonder... On a lighter note my smile widens from cheek to cheek as i discovered that the guard house has internet access! this dont usually happen in other camps, atleast now i have somethnig that feels like home.

However, as i browsed through the net, reading all my friends blogs including thier shout outs which they displayed, i realised that things has changed so fast while im away. It felt as though god had taken my life away but let my soul roam free just to let me see what had happened. Like a ghost I was only able to see thier problems, thier joy n the excitement, but was left there knowing theres nothing much i can do. So much so that i wanted to get involved, this cycle im going through makes it plaussible to reach. The journey had long begun for this boy whose changing into a man. The endurance and challenge which he face were a ton too heavy but determined to make his mark, as he continues to pull thru. His mind had long given up but his feet which soares through out the night marches on.

ive posted some pics there. its from my POP

i miss somepeople but at the same time sad knowing some changes were not what i want to happened. Nevertheless i believe some changes are good. and i hope things will go my way soon

2009-10-18T20:09:00.004+08:00

Training to be soldiers.. fight for our land...
once in our life... 2 years of our time...

TIME, its time that i learned is the most precious thing u want to keep and use wisely.
life in camp we are deprive to do what we want but what must be done.
MY BMT phase has passed, gone thru thick and thin meet all kinds of people in various walk in life. THose who were not with me now were dearly missed, they were there to lend a hand so we can survive together we all played our part, time came we had to depart. Some posted out some stayed without much of a choice.

Now stil serving i was posted out temporarily (i guess) to take my combat medic course, this new challenge i face requires both mental and physical. i had to go thru test after test, needles after needles, and shouting after shouting. Its definitely a leep for me from and it graduate to be sent here and learn the anatomy of human being, so far never had i know much about it i suspect i failed my recent test haiz..

On a lighter note, we do have frequents nights out well... once a week dat is.. hmm..
i heard wer stepping over to combat phase soon.. another rough ride i guess??
atleast it kept me occupied? i miss my ite days, performing.. socialising and always putting a smile from ear to ear. now it felt as if its a thing of a past, and i saw a vid of my friends performing i was jealous haha i cant believe they perform that song!! we use to sang in the hallway haha those were the days,..

Raya wasnt been much of celebration for me. i barely see my ite friends due to tight schedule sometime im just too exhausted and take my weekend as a sleeping festival. I hope thye dont think i forget them its the direct opposite i wish i could spent time with them.

16 oct 2009, HAPPY BDAE TO ME!! haha big numbers comes big responsibility.. i was sky high when i found out my friends wished me, even those i dont expect to remember haha i underestimated them, bad bad me... but 16 oct was a very rough ride for me, i had exams wic i cant do, i had soccer match wic i lost 4-1, and awarded a defaulters parade.. for those who dont know its acutally a punishment, hmm and early bdae present? haha . i learnt my lesson its now being kept deep inside a dungeon. i would like to wish selamat hari raya maaf zahri dan batin to all that i cant meet.
maaf zahir dan batin... insyallah when i can juggle i ll find the time.

2009-07-09T16:33:00.003+08:00

INSOMNIA...
mentally tired
people care with a reason
even when they deny it
cause inside they dont mean it
nevertheless handsome ar gmbr ni.. hahah :P
thank u

goodbye

2009-07-09T14:56:00.003+08:00

For u those who cared and was there
syafiq givs back ,
we really shouldnt expect anything but challenges in life,
cause if u dont, ull get hurt when things doesnt go ur way.
giving up is always a way to get away
but solving it is another story

to the people who showed compassion and care the past few days
i thank u for ur effort.
after tmr wont be hearing me anymore haha even after i booked out we see how it goes.
goodbye its time for me to go..

ngah feeling feeling ni yang tak kisah jng comment.. haha
nak kutuk tulis surat sua haah!

below is a recorded song i made today with a sore throat and headache
so maafla kan kalau suara tak sedap.
wanted to upload wan nyanyi fantasia bulan madu but i cant, if u want mintak je wan haha memorable moments

Sering la maafkan each other ...
berdendam tak bagus...
if u want to let it off...
just say to the person...
ingat tu kawan kawan! hahahah

yesturday i was hit by insomnia seriously tak tido sampai kol 6
i was becoming wan pau at the last moment hahah
why now? why must before book in? KNN haha

I HAD FUN wif our group, we are like families though some of them are too bz, maybe they just didnt realise, wont point fingers cause i still love u people haha
tapi favour ar eh jng perangai swine eh
later i come back.. smua perangai berubah.. dats it.
satu2 kene penampar kompang

to siti: thanks for the meal and sponsorship that day haha , guess dats it, ull never expect whats not to be it. best main L4D? haaha wan ngan saiful ada kalau nak join drng but most of all i really wanna thank u for ur EFFORT to say farewell haha plus those tears wah.. the past has been forgiven.

to Raaaaa (enam harakat): the chubby lil angel who has been the one behind all the laughter and hope, tahnk you for being there also.. =) plus thanks for the surat.. hehe u are really someone who is true soulfully, tak tipu nyer orng haha i acnt always count on u. karaoke session was memorable so as the fun times we had so far

to wan pao (dragan pao): i still dont get it how we turn up to be close friends, we were like from diff world... haha but now we are in the same catagory, we sure do spend alot of time together its up to u now to take care of the family haha and... GET A JOB haha comfirm by the time ull be the "abu dhabi" i know who is generous like Mikael jackson (MJ), buruk2 mana pun sejarah dulu.. skrng lain.. tol tak wan? hahaha kau smua...nya btul haha :P but no la hes a trustworthy guy who u can rely on but people he cant clap with one hand! he still need u guys so stand up for each other!

alamak mcm tulis surat wasiat ar...

to saiful (hardcore gay fan): wats wif u and hardcore gay? ada fetish eh hahah jkjk handsome guy.. haha funny person who loves to comment secretly, the retired date master i know, willing to help when he can, charismatic and was there always to make me look on the lighter side of note, walaupun skrng dah jrng pasal bz haha still help alot in reaching my goals. reliable and good friend in keeping secret. thank u sexy haha! ( do the "up urs" skin head pose or whatever its called, u know what i mean .. squize the chest and do the finger pose with pouting lips) HAHAHHA!

to amal: whered u go... is poly that bz? anyway goodluck in ur journey.. the person i know for is its down to earth attitude and was not the person i know who talks kasar but sensitive, lame ,proud, young women, who has small feet haha, miss the old times but were getting older guess we all change, always cover my ass when i get in trouble so its only fair my turn to say srry and thank you.. bestie we shud go out properly next time haha. last words ( cute is hot, hot is cute)

PERIOD haha apa seh period2 ni anyway

to rad: lu eh... sweet tau tapi... kenapa slalu nasib kau teruk kene lelaki durjana haha
u shud change ur taste :P haha anyway though what a waste tak dapat jumpa till meet again.

to dyla : sikit je sembunyik, sembuyik je LEBIH hahah dah la tu.. miss 2009 yng lepas tu lepas.. hehe ingat ni pepatah "bersatu teguh! berpecah roboh!" amcam malay b4 aku masih ada tak? haha :P rapat2 kan la silaturahim kita kembali. hha nanti i return smua buat hal sendiri dah tak bes ar..

to iqah: tahnk u ur the one of the chatteerbox that makes the group alive keep it up! miss kau nyer BS

to the others: sbnranya dah penat type.. oh ye to azrah hope u had the best time.. :)
and lain slmt tinggal ill be back not two weeks later maybe sebulan kot haha but ill be available for phone kols mALAM EH jng time training krng kol slmat salam ar

k dah k dah! penat ni type2 kalau kasi kiss takpa.
hehe
headaches.. headaches i need rest
to those who is in a mess clean ur self up look urself in the mirror and say ur nothing better,
u shud be helping each other we created equally and treated equally we shud, to those even who leads. jng kurang ajar bilabual nanti orng bbual kurang ajar balik lu tak terima.. haha kan dah kene

ok boy yng tak pernah basuh kain pakai tangna(me) nak outs goodbye

I MISS U ALL!
till one month later
ps: i...

dedicate this song to u

syafq here beggig forgiveness to those i made mistakes atau terkasar bahasa
(baikkan syafiq?) xP however theres somethings still stings
i wish they knew, karma happens

ill be there - for fun

2009-07-01T12:20:00.002+08:00

8 days 8 days! 8 dAYS ! AHHHHH!!!!

damn why army? police i accept without a doubt, hmm ill just have to go and find out. Nak kene beli barang agi.
wow dis past few days the air been kinda moody.
can explode anytime.. hmmm today will be going out with the group hope everything will go fine..

ill be putting up vid of wan singing and voice recording of him singin FANTASIA BULAN MADU!! HAHAHA MUAHAH!!!

2009-06-23T12:53:00.002+08:00

Below ar the new polls pls vote. only one person is entitled to one vote, so dont be an asshole and vote twice im gonna count. the second poll is for u guys if krng nak kluar twice so dat u can meet everybody or u just need a day will do?

2009-06-23T12:46:00.000+08:00

2009-06-23T12:38:00.002+08:00

2009-06-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

this is what happens when theres too many people,

guys pls eh its good enuf im using this to help us communicate and decide about this outing

ill be putting up new voting polls and whatever the winner date is we go ok? all of us must agree to this.

the song

2009-06-20T04:10:00.002+08:00

The SOng explains almost all what im going thru
wif strong lyrics that sent the message

i wish i can write songs like the mcfly does nevertheless ill try.
seems like somethings arent just the same.
given the choice u choose another path,
nothing can be force if u dont wanna upset anyone.

damn im tired just by trying to get the chords right for the song adakah mungkin
if u check the whole internet ull never get the chords for this song so i had to do it manually.
damn.. goodluck wan in trying to sing the song hahaha

i want to write a song but i need someone to help me out together at the same place or we are not gonna get on the same page.
its not as easy u get the lyric from someone whose not there and a rythm equals to a song.
I REPEAT ITS NOT DAT SIMPLE , u have to work together. so dats why its hard to do it alone u need them to b tthere so there no how to put the words or it doesnt work.
im just a musician and a half way song writer haha i need help!

besides i always express my thoughts in song

Vote for the dates

2009-06-18T21:31:00.001+08:00

Ok VOte HERE are the dates!

never say tmr can do unless

2009-06-18T20:36:00.003+08:00

NEver say theres always tomorrow to do it if u have to do it by today, cause itll never happen
hahah

ok people i want to make an announcement! PLS GIVE ME THE DATES BILA KRNG FREE KITA NAK PLAN OUTING NI TO CELEBRATE MY COUNTDOWN HAHA!
tak kesian ke tngk kita ni nak kene conscript masuk army,
n b somebodies bitch in the camp?

haha SInce tak ada orng nak take reponsibility to plan kan... I TAKE the job! SO DIS TIME... i tell u the dates.. krng vote ar mana satu nak! ok! haha Aiya tau enjoy.... je makcik2 eh??

and guys pun satu dunia sendiri.. je. COME ON PEOPLE this is once in a blue moon group outing were talking here.. so ok nanti i giv a list of plans krng vote ar nak mana satu ok???

Vote ends 23rd JUNE!
PEACE OUT

not gonna take the blame

2009-06-09T00:39:00.002+08:00

HEY! haha

just... when i thought of leave this blog alone
i just had to post something,
well i have only a month to go anyway look at the
COUNTDOWN CLOCK i have put there hahahaa

Guys...? What do you think cool huh? hahahah
*raise eyebrowse sinisterly*

Anyway past few days something came up which turn my mood around from ok to worst! This is what u get when u believe a misunderstanding verdict from someone u trust, and its about another person u trust. Suddenly i become untrustworthy, sad but now i dont wanna give a damn. i know they are just trouble in thier minds got no one else but me, for just believing i had not done even one thing that would destroy anything. However yeah thats what the person want to believe.

Sometimes i just wanna say...
SILENCE! or I KILL U!
that would have solved the problem.

The headaches doesnt seem to stop, the humidity adds on the irritation and the people i need to talk to is missing. DAmmit cant u people sit still haha atleast release me from the cell i built upon myself and get a breath of fresh air.

I cant depend on u people always.., guess i have to break the barrier on my own.
MOving on always seem harsh on the eyes, but we have to belief that there is always
another rope for us to cling on. sometimes they just hang there but ur being pessimistic and says there would be no one like the person. OF course la deyh if all the same boring lor... then and this point ur gonna say " no i dont want, i want to stay this way.." but then again u must remember, are u gonna die staying there stranded or gonna die trying and explore every oppurtunity there is out in the real world?

ive been thru this stage time and time again some hurts most cause they dont know how we feel and they hate u for some reason or went off wif somebody u dont giv a damn, worst gone wif someone u knoe. Some care of the other party feelings will they be ok? sooner or later someone gonna get hurt, its u or them. if u wnt to b a hero carry on but dont go crying and say i shouldnt have done it, cause "its too late to apologise.." (sings apologise)

But thats relationships of man and woman, friendship though is a diff thing altogether. hmm..

Time flies fast dont they? a month to go and im out. i wont regret, theres nothing for me to loose just my own lazyness, pride, and priveledge style ive been living on.

I MUST stop living like a king and start being a peasant.

goodnight. and goodmorning.

i just thought this is a cool song

2009-06-06T01:26:00.002+08:00

GOSSIP~

sounds familiar to you?

damn right it is, we all do, dont come and tell me u dont.
ur lying to urself smack urself and wake up .XD

today

i learn dat gossip is a mean socialising system that can hurt people,
but who can avoid this, in the current society?? i think even the pious make this mistake.
BUT im not saying they are.

however before i continue, let me show u the FIVE meaning of todays topic "GOSSIP!"

1. Rumor or talk of a personal, sensational, or intimate nature.
2. A person who habitually spreads intimate or private rumors or FACTS.(yeah facts baby~) haha
3. Trivial, chatty talk or writing.
4. A close friend or companion.
5. Chiefly British A godparent.

NOW.. enuf of intro lets concentrate on no.2~ haha that will be the main event!
i have a few friends got affected by this,
normally we are the ones saying it
its sad to see this happening, we say were saying the facts so its not gosssiping however when we talk behind thier backs about it and not adressing the matter MANO O MANO or man to man or one on one, or whatever fancy name ur giving for that matter haha, to that person what the problem and solve it. It just gets worst.

this shit happens everytime, sometimes gossip can even break a relationship ties. now thats harsh, however, whatever the mistakes we make we must learn the mistake. when i heard this gossip from one of my friend i realised what that person was doing was what i did to a ex-friend not long ago. now i really understand why it happen between us, and what i should avoid doing from happening again..

al kisah.. haha

well thats , that.

Today at 5pm my parents and grand parents will be flying to saudi arabia and perform the haj, or pilgrimage at mecca.
hope they go safely and return safely, AMIN. Recently there has been a controversy about the visa, alhamdulillah, with gods grace they manage to get them on time.

just dis mrning i had to carry thier bags, and off to meet saiful at tamp int. just by being in the airport somehow i imagine when will i be there haha. anyway today was hot! just after prayers me and saiful went seperate ways and im suppose to go to school but...
i fainted on the sofa as soon as i got home and had a drink of cold water. hhaha
woke up at 4 when somebody decided to ring and wake me up. it was OLD bestie amal and OLD friend hazwan hahaha they wanted to go out. THEY learn that boredom is a big thing in life hahah "kluar kluar kluar!" :P haha

went to skul to sent the shirt i borrowed from kassim, then off to century squARE to eat dinner with most of the singing club gang hahah! discovered teha is a wierd funny and frank person, all this while i just tot she was "SIAO" haha no offence, learned that kassim have been having problems so we help him a lil in his decisions. all the best beb. Hope u learn something along the way this is part and parcel of life.

unexpectedly today i had fun.
lets wait and see what adventures comes head on.

sekian terima kasih HAHAH!
(tak perlu seh ni) xD

woops

2009-06-04T14:15:00.002+08:00

I FORGOT ONE MORE THING
TO ELAH THERE IN THE PICTURE
SRRY TAK DATANG UR PERFORMANCE

PROMISE TO COME TO UR NEXT PERFORMANCE :)
ALL THE BEST!!

hunnie bunnie xD

one more try

2009-06-04T13:40:00.003+08:00

HEY ALL

thats right! im back!?
i miss myself. the holidatys are making me dull,
im giving one more try on blog.

when pocket money runs out. things change
stress beby HOlding on to this strange emotions

have u seen the movie MIB where they can mke u forget what had just happened with just a small device looks like a pen, that has a flash and you can only remember on the date they programed you to remember. "WELL.. its happening to me now" except i cant remember anything just dark, dirty little secrets.

A horror movie i tell you., Been thru shit, and more shit are coming ahead of time
thats right, now everytime i wake up i hear people march, and singing jingles from the army.

hell no, im going in to guards. To others "Cool" "wah fit ah" "not bad" "Commando pe boy?"

have u guys ever seen russle peters in one of his stand up comedy? theres a scene about beating a child and russel stories about how he tried to diss his father and see if he can excape with a lifeline called "i'll call child services!" haha hes father asked him to do the dishes and he replied this to his dad "FUCK U DAD!!!" and dats for u guys who thinks guards is something im proud of, hell no i tell u. hahahah why dont u assholes get off those chairs while reading to this blog and replying to TAGGED "hie thanks for the add :)" shits, go and do something about that fats that surrounds u like panctured bus tyre. xD ANd WHen that happens and u manage to get what i get, i wanna laugh at u XD mean? look in the mirror n reflect.

recently went to buisness seminar, and i learn alot. about health and wealth. they thought me stuff dat can make me dont wnna work anymore. yeah to some, getting a safe job is preferred, hey go ahead. but theres another way u can make money. u can make money work for you. u just have to know how. and sit there scraching ur ass while money goes in ur pocket cool huh? well its not as easy as it sounds its a risky task, but once ur good at it. goodbye working.

in that time i learn having a vehilcle is a liability. but im not gonna use dis is as an excuse for me not taking any license, lazy bastard.
its not about saving its about spending, but doesnt mean u dont need to save. anyway enuf of these buisness tips, i bet u guys ngah ternganga je. But its true, now my brother doesnt need to work he already invested on a buisness and estimated that $5000 goes into hes pocket by just overlooking the process. now who wants that to happen to u every month? its called passive income and cashflow. hes still working though but he cant wait to quit use the money on other investment. i said i want in, but he said no. too bad kalau tak byebye money masuk pocket everyday leh blanja korang haha, that was that now i have to wait for another oppurtunity if it arise again.

BoooRRRiiing sitting at home , but maybe its not that maybe i just want to socialise. the faster way to kill me is not to feed me chicken and making me shut up for a whole month. hais...
i love LAst summer =)

OK!!!!! DAH UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now comment or the kitty dies!

2008-12-30T04:22:00.003+08:00

im sick and tired
of this crap happening to me
that suffocation
i just want to run now, run till i drop on my knees and there i know where my limit lies.

i have lost faith in alot of things i used to believe,
this is disturbing images, scenes, scripts i heard before.
is this karma? is this retribution?

the signs seem like its saying so.
im short of breath, for awhile
things seem like its a breeze.
but now its as if im walking through muds of lava in hell alot of
unhealthy feelings thought.
if i can draw what im feeling now.
u can see this blue beast with bloody claws.
cracking my skull from inside as i put both
my hands onto my ears.

this tornado of emotions is driving me crazy!
am i over reacting
and should i just put patience in what i have endured all this while
will my silent prayers finally answered?

what happened to me? my complexion grow darker,
eyebags starts appearing pimples starts bubbling,
im poor in both ways,
money and happiness.

dear god..
the only thing i ask for
is bring that happiness back.
for money i do not care for now.

*i dont need another puppet.
*or just a one night stand.
(*BOTH ARE NOT IN SEXUAL TERMS)

hypocracy, double standards,
naive, narrow minded, why does this exist?
why there are such things happening.

i believe in a open state of mind,
confidence, equality, fairness. but things around us
and particularly me. is not happening. and i tend to fall into
trap doors where this feeling i cant respond orderly as i
have always been, and sometime hatred.

its december

2008-12-15T16:20:00.006+08:00

its halfway thru december and now
finally i woke up from a head spinning nap.
suddenly decide what the hack its been freaking too looong...yeah
thats right too long
im going crazy...

everyday i look at people and places in the diferent directions
despite looking normal...
IM LOSt with little sense of direction.
almost forgetting the password for blogspot.
Someone from abroad finally came back to singapore though reluctantly beyond her own will. And not i wanted..
Met her thrice since she came.. and i have mix emotions running thru myself. i think maybe she feels the same, just maybe. what does it means when someone cant look in the eye? any takers? well despite the past, we still got the guts to meet up.

Syafiq..syafiq.. am i still cling onto something u dont know? , where was the freewill me.. hands untied and were flying thru the sky?
i feel theres a chain tied on the neck and feet
im a prisoner of war or something. and now im crawling.
now somehow i lost interest in building up the body i was once had..
SAIFUL TALK SOME SENSE ON ME FAST IM HAVING BEER BELLIES AND JELLY ARMS.. AND PLATFORM CHEST

and u december babies... are leeches hahah foreigners from the group :P
majority of you are born in this days...
u knoe once my freinds are equal haha one people one nation one singapore...
there were equal people in different months.
now most of us are monorities.. xD
haha im just joking december babies..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DECEMBER BABIS... i mean BAbies...
what? cant take a joke? hahah
these are the dicks and tits i know celebrating their birthday:
*Fred*
*Arif*
*Iqah*
*IzaH*
*RASYIDAH*
*the yoda of all paitaos, Radhyah*
*Iskandar*(however i know u dont read this)
some people i know is not mentioned above its either i forgot (im sorry 19 yeard of age is old enuf for me) or
i want u to rot i n hell hahahhhahahahahahahahhahaha!

ahaha ya ya i know u label me jackass haha
but too bad my blog i rule.. :P

talking about pigs.. best known as BABI in malay.
my guitar comrades and myself had bbq pit.
and we palyed this game called BABI, this game was introduced by the eater himslef Berwin haha.

The game goes someone has to start the round by saying "one frog ", followed by the guy next to him he must say "jump into the water", and the next guy must say " bush". then the next guy starts a new round by saying "two frogs ", now here is where it begins. the next guy must also says "two frogs ", then the next guy must say "jump into the water", followed again the next guy must say jump into the water as well. GOT what im trying to say here? it adds up.. and it goes on and on until someone either forget what he suppose to say or he said wrongly. ANd that unlucky guy gets the letter "B" and if he continues to make mistake he gets the letter "A" and so on until he becomes a true PIG or BABI haha and then hes out of the game. but its not over the babi can disturb the other players once hes out of the round. i think thats why the game was called babi! cause when ur trying to concentrate and the guy is trying to make u do mistake
ull tend to shout BABI hhahaha

and during this moment was the chance for me n my freinds get revenge on syaiful who swears alot we really want him to become BABI hahahahha so while playing we tried to distract him and sure enough soon he became a pork chop hahah!
AND the best part was.. he shouted angrily but GOD ALMIGHTY Took his voice out and he suddenly choked and lost his voice.. haha for awhile the bbq pit gone quite.
he kept swering but he was like whispering.. hahha cian...
but our enjoyment was shortlived. despite laughing to the ground and tears of joy as the magical miracle moment happened later that morning he got his voice back..

AT that point of time i only have two words for ya " OH MERCY!"
haha

well that was that about the edition of voulgarities.

now lets talk about what have ive done or where had i gone..
well most of the time i shud be rotting but yest i dunnoe how..
for the first time I dated someone without someone supervising her hahah
i know to some its kinda lame but this person is under close survellence of her family... and somehow i won the trust of her family.

unexpected though i was told that her aunty wanted to join on this outing but instead its just me and her? erm... shud i say wow? yes? or?? oh-uh.. hah haha
swear i dont know what to do im unprepared we both were actually.
so we went swensons to eat.. as the dominant male i paid for the meal... ( kaya kapa bang..?) "tak la... baru kene tipu ngan boss duit dah masuk.. " haha wrong move my friend wrong move..

she ate alot well i forced her actually haha cause she's getting thinner (so am i) haha and our dessert was Chocolate Fondue.... yeah my brother chocolate fondue.. this time saiful i get all the BANANAS... hahahahhaha!
but out candle that melts the chocolate. kept going off due to the wind. so that night i practiced raising up myhand.. like those days in primary school (checher! checher! the fire went out.) hahaha

i almost if ur reading thank you for the night. x)

well... these are the pictures i dont wanna edit love to keep it RAW... u get what i mean?

there are too many to talk about. batam. raya. bbq pit. bdae parties.
lets just put in one slide show shall we?

i miss all of u my friends.
so the song in the slide is for u guys.
ps. i want to be a go kart race one day...

old post

2008-11-19T23:30:00.004+08:00

heylo..
its been a month
since ive updated this stalled blog

this blog was about to close
when its backed by demand
came out in my tagboard
that a bunch of crowds when on riot for this blog
im touched and we(me myself and myself) have decided to
continue this blog haha

tahnk you thank you..

first things first..
i want to shout dis out loud..
dont be a wuss! ill tell u why later.
haha i went thru stuffs
and learned stuffs lately
and lately punya late something has finally
came.. JUSTICE SERVED
my pay has arrived..
hear daT!woo! but sadly i cant use any of the money..
well atleast not now i got to plan what to do wit it.
Don't wanna end up being a "hobo"

wow ok where to begin i have loads and loads of stories
to share but ill just let the picture do most of the talking
and ill put what was the event about.ok? alright...

Just incase ur wondering what i do at work..
and where did i find time typing this post.
well...
been slacking, eating n watching free movies on the net.
WHile getting paid.. awesome job yeah hell yeah
its better than selling ur peanuts and ur holy hole to some
horny buggers at lorong 18. plus its "HALAL" hahhaha.

However this working in heaven look alike has its cache,
its the devils game... why? cause it drains slowly my mental
intelligence about IT to ground zero. itll hunt my ass in the end of the day
cause i have to present what i have done for the past 2 month and a week.
so what should i say? well.. ive been studying on how to bring virus to the system, how not to plug a spoiled chord extension, which will end in short circuiting the system, and how to climb up the ceiling to rob a datacentre? haha. those were the days..
one week more and im outta here..
this is like a detention centre
so free but cant go anywhere to enjoy living my 9-teen days haha.

im calling out to people out there if ur going anywhere and dont mind another person to join in the fun pls do contact me i need to go out and actually enjoy
doing stuff before the new year..

THIS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED LAST MONTH BEFORE SOMETHING HAPPENED

2008-10-23T16:03:00.002+08:00

hello all..
i know..
i know..
its been awhile ive been updating right..?
miss me eh..? hahaha

suddenly someone turn off the radio..
well actually im at work now..
seems like i have time right so why not use the precious time
work on my blog haha
ive learnt so far in attachment:
set up ip phones, config switch with spanning tree protocols and use it to connect the
internet at 100mbps ( the difference between 100mbps in this place and at home..)
theres no lag!! i troubleshoot connection between servers and switch which took me half a day.. damn it, but finally we got it right..
an access point dropped the other day.. and we had to reconfigure and solve e problem
at the same day after which i learn the bitter truth about my course..
it opens my eyes my heart to study again..
i had once thought this was enough but i was far from right.
people of IT... to us when gaining knowledge the sky is the limit.
Each time theres new technolgy must learn

but there were times that make me smile and laugh till the ceilings drop.
mainly was laughing along with ali... the man.. who dropped coffee in datacentre..
he was so scared of the aunty that he had to mop the floor.
and times with thomas was fun as well.. where ali always pinpoints thomas physical appearance just cause hes has sharp nipples hahah!
then he would just tickle his nipples and thomas hes bestfriend at work will push him against the glass wall.. and u can c ali face flat on the glass from the other side.. haha but there were also times.. i made mistakes.. like short circuiting a rack, pls dont tell ali i accidently plug out bluecoats wires (a device used in data centre, want more details go and google it lazyass) and lastly i accidently brought in a virus as i was searching for software regarding pc remote access however i manage to delete it with the help of google haha!

izah.. if ur reading this im sure. in ur heart( bila nak upload gambar!!) hahaha ok..ok.. nak upload ni.. tapi i want to make mcm satu link then u can view.. all the
pics. can help me with the java anyone?
anyway so hows everybody?
some are in dilemma..
and some has just moved on..
bravo to those who has overcome that urge to fail
and submit to their needs.. remember u have ur own dignity

selamat_tinggal_kesedihan - Chandra

im 19 now =)

2008-10-18T11:06:00.003+08:00

hie everyone..
finally im 19 now..
haha
however im in a dilemma of feelings
it was early in the morning and i don't know what to feel
happy or sad?
sad cause it will be my last teen days,
and it felt like i had to just reminisce the past
that was full of fun, laughter and tears.
happy cause its my birthday and to spent every last of it?

i feel so much closer to tees.
time is like running out.
however i know things have to be taken slowly but i fear
i have not felt happy enough.
to some this wouldn't be a problem
its diff =)

k now lets talk how my birthday goes..
it was 1.30 in the morning
somebody called me when i was sleeping comfortably on my bed,
as soon as i heard a girls voice i assumed it was one of my angels..
so i said hello and asked who's there?
instead of giving an answer she questioned me back. (aiya jialat ar its already late and she wants to play who wants to be a millionaire ) haha
so i answered with three of the angels name and all of which i assumed were wrong.
nice going fiq. xD
so i asked then who are you?
to my surprise it was SITI FATIMAH bTE dot dot dot haha
we chatted awhile but my eyes were too heavy, my mind was about to crash and my voice sounded as rough as the edges of the mountain rocks ( suara ngah seksi ar) haha
finally we said goodbye and hung up

i take a peek in my inbox and had 7 messages haha thanks all for the birthday wish
all of which i cherish the most..
wan pao was the 1st guy to say my bdae wish.. ( berikan tepukan..) haha
1st gurl i cant remember syidah or mas
but i can remember last girl to wish me bdae raeya! ( berikan tepukan..) menjai penutup tirai haha.

didnt get any presents but
aww.. my angels brought me presents!!!
touching kape... haha
radh thanks tau radh serious haha
im so happy i finally got a beg
first theyy trick me on believeing it was a small beg but i dont mind
the thoughts that counts.
hug* haha

pic pic! jng lupa sent so i can post them the raya pics.. and everything

Thank You-Dido - Amour For Love

for you for you
and happy bdae to my self

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray, but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
my head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again and even if I'm there,
they'll all imply that I might not last the day
and then you call me and it's not so bad
it's not so bad and

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is giving me the best day of my life

Push the door, I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and through
then you handed me a towel and all I see is you
and even if my house falls down now, I wouldn't have a clue
because you're near me and

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is giving the best day of my life

lagi satu ar!

2008-10-10T01:44:00.003+08:00

ello.. srry dah lama tak update blog firstly
i miss u all haha
yest i got in a formula one race wif saiful
and we have the pics to proove dat we beat each other record
at first i set the record straight then he battle down to the core i beat my best record and now holds 14.40 sec on the race track
exciting beb haha everytime i beat a record he beats another one
the rivalry was equivelant to mclaren and ferari
i upload the formula one heat between me and saiful haha
very tight beb.

But now let me present to you another song i wrote the lyrics
but the piano totally not me
but mystery man.. hahah

its for all those who trying believe they can still do it
if they try one more time
( and in which i think we all can )

BUt let me warn you this is for personnel use only

kalau nak kene saman silakan not my prob
i did dis just for myself but i shared to you cause i
want u all to listen :)

I - Afii

THESE ARE THE LYRICS I WROTE With MY OWN HALF NAKED SWOLLEN BRAINS AT NIGHT hhaha

i still remember..
it was cold that night when i hold ur hands
and so scaredwe both were
but the touch seemed like it was meant to be
with u my baby

do u still remember
the place we used to sit
and we spoke about the future
will there be a day that we
can finally say
i love you , lady

this could be that day

and i.. would just reached to the sky
and bring that dream back to you..
where we left off
and i.. know that it would not be enough
to just say the words
so im here to prove it to you

if there is a chance to choose
u know u want to start a new
and i am too
could this be the one
we know we could
and i think we should
try this cause theres little to choose

and i.. will be that new things in life
like u always wanted it to be
excitng and wild
and i.. would just reached to the sky
and bring that dream back to you..
where we left off
and i.. know that it would not be enough
to just say the words
so im here to prove it to you
and i..
know thats gonna be enough
so i am here again to show u
that i am true..

i am true..

YEA YEA ADA LAGU SENDIRI

2008-10-04T02:05:00.003+08:00

YEA YEA I HAVE A SONG OF MY OWN!
DID THIS SONG TILL 2AM IN THE MORNING!

Kenangan ku OST- Afii.wav - Dj Afii

untuk puteri nah ni dah habis ni nak dengar sangat kan?
haha to all my friends i have created a song

and this are the lyrics
came from inside.. =)

kenangan ku
berulang dan bermain
walaupun seketika
pabila ku pejam mata, terkenangmu

kejauhan..
terlalu jauh dari dakapanku
ku tak berkata aku cinta
atau akan menunggu dirimu

(chorus)
tak dapat ku bayangkan..
di hari ini
kita akan bertemu kembali

sayangku akan ku kata
aku masih menyayangimu
jika tidak.. terlambat
hendakku kata kepadamu
aku mencintaimu
untuk selamanya
~

ni part satu orang main solo ar!

walaupun
sudah berbulan..
hatiku kesepian..
engkau tetap di hatiku
selama ini

back to (chorus)

selamat hari raya

2008-10-02T09:48:00.002+08:00

Selamat HARI RAYA.. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...

THE LIGHTINGS ,THE DECORATIONS, WEARING MATCHING COLOURS OF KURUNG,
HAND SHAKES AND WORDS OF GOOD WILL. FORGIVENESS WAS EVERYWHERE
THROWN ONTO EACH OTHER & FIRWORKS ON THE STICK PLAYED BY LITTLE CHILDREN RUNNING AROUND IN CIRCLES, RAYA WAS EVERYWHERE WONDERFUL AS U WOULD HAVE IMAGINE.

HOWEVER BEHIND EVERY CURTAINS LIES A SURPRISE, IF U WOULD ASK ME.
YES ANXIOUS AS I AM ABOUT THE FESTIVE FELT A LIL DISTANCE FROM SOMEONE USED TO BE CLOSE TO ME. SOME GOOD AND BAD MEMORIES U KNOW SOMEHOW IF UR CELEBRATING THIS HOLY MOMENT, FORGIVING WAS ONE U SHOULD NOT IGNORE, NO MATTER HOW HARD IT BREAKS. UNLESS ITS SOMETHING U CANT NOT REALLY FORGIVE TILL THEY PROVE U HOW SINCERE WAS THE APOLOGY.

MOST OF YOU I KNOW IS FEELING SOMEHOW THE SAME AND U KNOW U HAVE TO FORGIVE THEM AND FORGET ALL THE MISTAKES AND HURT TO YOU OR YOUR FRIENDS.
TO SOME ITS EASY AND TO SOME ITS HARD DEPENDS ON BIG THE MISTAKE IS, NAMUN TETAPI SEDANGKAN NABI MAAFKAN UMATNYA KITA JUGA HARUS MEMAAFKAN SAUDARA2 KITA. SAYA YAKIN ADA KEBAIKAN ATAS APA YANG KITA LAKUKAN SELAMA INI SEPERTI PUASA DAN MEMAAFKAN ANTARA SESAMA MUSLIM, TETAPI HARUSLA KITA MEMAAFKAN MEREKA SAMBIL BERJABAT TANGAN.

YEST RAYA WAS SLOW AND STEADY, NO RUSH FROM THE END OF JOHOR BACK TO SINGAPORE. IT WAS A LONG TRIP DIDNT REALLY WENT FOR THE MONEY, JUST TO MENIKMATI SUASANA HARI RAYA, THOUGH I DESPERATELY NEED CASH. I STILL REMEMBER WHEN I WAS A KID I WANTED TO GO AS MUCH HOUSES AS I POSSIBILY CAN JUST TO GET THOSE GREEN PACKETS FILLED WITH COLD HARD CASH OF 2 BUCKS HAHA I SHAKE ALL THE ADULTS HANDS HOPING FOR ONE OF THEM TO DRAW OUT THOSE ONE WAY TICKET TO TOY'R'US HAHA. WAS FOND OF WATER GUNS AND SEXY CARS OF THE HOTWHEELS. HA.. THOSE WERE THE DAYS... IM AT WORK NOW GOT PLENTY OF TIME TO THINK AS MY CO-WORKER HAPPILY SLEEP THRU THE MORNING HAHA

THIS RAYA I WANT TO FEEL THAT TOGETHERNESS WHICH IS MISSING.
CANT WAIT TO MEET MY BROTHERS, SISTERS, ANGLES N SOME OTHER PEOPLE HAHA.
YEST AT GRANNY PLACE MY GRANDPA GAVE THE WHOLE FAMILY A SPEECH,
IN HIS SPEECH HE REMIND US TO ALWAYS PRAY 5 TIMES A WEEK NEVER TO SKIP IT.
HE TELLS THIS IS A PILLAR FOR US WHEN WE HAVE DIED.
HE CRYS AS HE SPOKE SOFTLY BUT WE ALL HEARD IT LOUD AND CLEAR WHAT HE MEANT.
TOL2 MENYUSUK JIWA.. INSYALLAH TOK I WILL DO IT, THIS IS NOT JUST AN ADVICE
ITS A MUST TO ALL MUSLIMS. TO PRAY BEFORE PEOPLE PRAY FOR YOU, AND WHEN THAT HAPPENS TIADA MAAF BAGIMU.
AND IN THAT SPEECH HE EMPHASISED WHEN HES GONE MY FATHER WILL TAKE OVER THE FAMILY..
THIS WAY I UNDERSTAND MY GRANDPA DID THIS SO THAT THERE WONT BE MUCH ARGUEMENTS BETWEEN THE TAKEOVER. ALHAMDULILLAH MY UNCLE AND AUNTIES IS NOT LIKE THE ONES IM THINKING OF. DAN SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH SAYA MEMPUNYAI KELUARGA YANG SIHAT.

EVENTHOUGH I NEVER REALLY SHOW MY LOVE. BEFORE ITS TOO LATE LOVE U ATOK AND NENEK. U HAVE HELPED RAISED ME AND IM FORTUNATE FOR THAT. AND TO MY PARENTS THANK YOU FOR FEEDING ME AND GAVE ME EDUCATION.

Hari Raya Hari Bahagia - Akma & Felix

haha i rmember this song.. by hard and i know u do too :)

sleep

2008-09-30T09:14:00.002+08:00

AHHhh i need sleeep...
penatnyer...
at work now. its already 9 plus nothing has been done yet,
i dont think this company has half day for muslims as there are only two of us
here.

well many things has gone by another month ending with many diff story,
some share love & some share hurt, its a cruel world but to be fair
no one ever said it could be easy..

chatted with saiful yest we did a little catch up, and expectedly
he got into a lil stumble but manage to pick up.
when to the best tips website haha u knoe i knoe bruddA! haha
i believe i can pick up from there.

wow really my eyes are hurting i need sleep and pimples are evolving
radh atleast u punya satu tau mines like cluster sia
i shud hav slept earlY!
damn it nevermine there was this super eerie low voice dat made me awake
and turn out sumone was having similar distrubance at her house haha
dun wrry stay strong! xp bet u didnt wake up for sahur.

no choice for me.. so tired. yawns
well today hmm what song should i play..
to tell u the truth many of my friends out there
recommended me nice songs haha and now i dont know which to choose!
more more pls dun wrry ill surely put one of them here haha

lets all today live up the upcoming festive
selamat hari raya.. to all my muslim friends.
i knoe i have alot to make up
so i hope there is chance for forgiveness...
dosaku bnyk bnyk skali.

haha ah sblum terlambat to my angles.. selamat ari raya..
and syidah ingat eh purple taw! jng paitao haha
:P mcm mana suka kan kasut baru?

just so u knoe

2008-09-29T09:26:00.001+08:00

for u, you n me haha

Just so you know acoustic - Jesse McCartney

yest amal let me listen to two gud sngs
be putting up soon but for now enjoy this old song haha
reason = i've forgot the title :P

my last dedication for you

2008-09-28T12:40:00.002+08:00

well ok i dont what to say this time update soon with more lively
reasons behind the lyrics

this what i feel for now
Dont Want to Say Goodbye - Ari Hest

if only she knew - taufik batisah

2008-09-26T00:08:00.003+08:00

all right tall right
i knoe i dont have much visitors to this
music filled blog.

but i have a song that i would love to let u
boys and gurls listen.
as is it plays a part in this soul.. alright
take it away amber pacific

Gone So Young [Acoustic] - Amber Pacific

well alright, today arrive just on time
didnt manage to meet the gang
today and together we go to tanjon pagar srry guys but dun wrry hope tmr ill be early

ok dis time ill voice out ouh yea
i will voice out! ahH!! haha
ok mr. larry im here to learn
actually i learn something today thanks to Johnny! alright
u rock man.. he thought me password recovery on both switch and routers
now can u dig it sucka!!! hahaha
but after that normal routine at 2.30 to six taitee time.. hahahahh
today ali mange to win a game
job well done my man.. haha
i won alot too but lost alot too..
haha but remember im not playing for real ar

i hope im standing on the right position

this happens when left feels right and right feels wrong.

then i met 2 of my angles hahah!
radh and syidah
these 2 ketupats wants to go curl2 the hair like
curly fries..

srry i came late gurls i took the train in the wrong direction haha silly me..
arrived before seven and the gurls came like ahbeng and ahlian
getting ready to "hantam" the life out of me haha
but in the end charlie make them smile.. nyahahaha
there was no hello charlie.. so rude! :P
again must blanja radh dammit this time its kfc
"u think what i atm machine ar?"
haha no wrries its all gud.. its all gud..

ouh yeah about the hair..
its nice... really really nice.. haha
to me it looks like mix curls but i like it
yeah diff from the normal.
dun wrry la u are beautiful.. ngan baju kurung melayu agi
aiseymen mcm nak masuk meminang! haha

and gurl u dont need to look as good as jessica alba
u are at the best look of urself..
serious tak suka gi claim insurance ar haha

till here then gudnight sleep tight
IM FORCED TO TALK ABOUT THEM haha jkjk

3rd day

2008-09-24T23:12:00.003+08:00

its already wednesday!
today came work early again the aunty wasnt there
but the high rank personnel was there
haha wow so good kan.. come to work early go to school late
haha ironic!
again wait for ali my co-worker to arrive before i can do anything.

ouh yeah before that on the way there i got myself drenched by raiN!!
it was raining heavily and i only have my jacket for shelter
lucky i didnt fell sick, alhamdulillah im still standing

ok back to ali's arrival
he arrived sumwhere 9+ i think
as soon he cam in an settle down and after we both complain of the heavy rain and
the freezin temperature,

i look at him and smiled so what should we do today..
hahaha
and the words of wisdom came out
we are going to the store to check the items take its serial no. sent it
to miss veron ( not that argentinian veron eh). ok sound fun haha
atleast sumthing i shud do instead of rotting and play taitee at viwawa.com haha
so tot of doing it cepat2

But he said relax we do it around 11 haha delay sumore..
ok wth haah its still early btw so went to do the task
and got myself a lil cut on my finger in the process but im fine went back to the
freezer( data centre) i typed it out on excel and save it gave it to him
to submit. after that..

freeze my self until i need to make 3 visits of the toilet and ali haah i think more than 5 he went to the toilet.
rest its history aha
chat wif reaya and got ourselve thinking well i think this song will suit her well
here u go dedicated to you x)

Ill Do Anything (Acoustic) - Jason Mraz

hope u get what it meant

however dont get me wrong :)

2008-09-24T00:10:00.004+08:00

2nd day passsed

and today we do lil but atleast something
sat in the datacentre from 2 to six

before that we had work to do cleaned up the mess in the datacentre
cause before this no one took care of this place.
and then from there i watch the time flies as i went on viwawa.com
and played big2.5 haha its a addicting game u shud try.
dont blame me there was nothing much to do here
the net save me from feeling so cold.

ouh and raihanah theres more to come from this site
if u have loved the songs in this blog haha:

dedicate this to all my especially that closest friends ( but i knoe i will live)
and guys i want to cover this song.
he doesnt sing that wel but i like the arrangement
especially the part the lead guitarist solo.
i know we can do it guys! x)
Without You - rockwell

inspire me lovely friends.

2008-09-22T23:17:00.002+08:00

wow first day..
tmrs another day for me to battle on
it wasnt much of a work day today helped
clean up the place first organized the cables
ther more work to do
wow shes so lucky amalina learned new things
but nevertheless i shall not waste this oppurtunity to learn something
from this company, though tired i will push myself!

eff u lazyness i hate u!
get out of my life! i want a bright future
and ur holding me back.

i cant just sit there and watch the time flies by?
easy money yeah? but its not educational.

Good Charlotte- Motivation Proclamation (acoustic).mp3 -

ps: im not gonna tell you when ill update anymore
i cant stand hoping ull reply.

ouh well

2008-09-21T22:05:00.003+08:00

ouh weell syafiq here today is sunday.. kinda hectic at home..
carry things out in out in but in the end i t ends up in the same room
-_- thats the way it goes here Spring cleaning before the big day for all muslims all over the world
and tmr will be the first day of the attachment im super nervous!
hope that they are kind people and not some kind of people making me like a cheap labour.

and tonight song for today..
for all my love ones friends... and blog hoppers if theres one haha
Setting Up Sunday - Meg & Dia
pls play to listen aite :)

ps: i miss all of you yyou you and you

boring saturday

2008-09-20T20:35:00.003+08:00

heylo heylo..
what a slow saturday for me..
its here ur Afi
how are u guys doing this week?
well well its already 20th of september and 20th day of the fasting month
ten more days guys if im not wrong haha
to some this raya brings alot of happiness and some challenges that
really pulls their hairs out.
AS i sit here and count the mins and hours pass by slowly but
killing the guts out of me to the time for attachment in the upcoming 22nd

well tonight seem lonely lets put a song that could accompany the lonely hearts
and always remember.. there's a blessing in disguise behind the challenges faced
as god is always fair. if u manage to uphold that feeling and succeed to overcome
just pray and fulfill what u must do.. god willing things will brighten up
in the future

even i ur host for tonight feel that challenge to live and not just survive..
here u go a song ive been holding onto
and hope one day someone would duet wif me this song

its called mendung tak bererti hujan
a song telling u dat when ur days grows dark doesnt mean its the end
ive been telling myself this since sumone left hehs

Mendung Tak Berarti Hujan - Dygta Ft. Nita

Untuk Datin R dan Tun NA.

2008-09-18T10:06:00.006+08:00

haha anda bersama dj afi kembali..
kalau kita mengadakan tadi sesi hari jadi,
Skrng sudah masuk waktu berfeeling pagi2
kini terimalah lagu
dua lagu untuk kedua gadis2 istemewa pada pagi ini dengan lagu fav
saya sendiri dan lagu faberet raihanah, dan juga telah menjadi lagu fav amalina ahahah
khas tuk mereka sebagai hadiah.

Dygta- kerna ku sayang kamu
Kerna ku sayang kamu - Dygta
dan satu lagu baru bagi saya
Ten 2 Five- Teman
Teman - Ten 2 Five
jeng jeng jeng...

Ps. gud morning everyone sedia lah anda untuk sahur nanti hehe

Welcome

2008-09-18T10:06:00.002+08:00

My first post!
welcome everyone... not much of a celebration i didnt announced this
FM will go on air.. haha dedicated to my life
and the wonderful works of music from my friends and i.

well... thank you for tuning in
to my life.. today was great jammed in school with Sufiyan & Afandi.
we done it smooth with acoustic and nylon guitars.
will post the song made by Sufiyan
dedicated to Raihanah todays her birthday alright....
happy E I G H T E E N...
and happy bdae to my dear friend nuramalina
happy N I N E T E E N...
for helping in creating this simple blog.

till then love ya all let this song fill the night..
for you the princesess of the day...
Datin Raihanah and Tun nur amalina hahah!
dari Dj Afi.. terimalah lagu selamat hari jadi dari commando2 kecil2 ngan pistol mainan mereka haha

Selamat Hari Jadi - Budak